Yesterday was a bad day! She and John groused at one another and the Matron spent most of her free time, cleaning. Sure, the family agrees that Mother's Day is just one more cash cow for Hallmark, but she felt, well, neglected.
Scarlett and Merrick did make her a beaded necklace.
Scarlett and Merrick did make her a beaded necklace.
It broke.
This morning, her jeans were tight. There might be a direct correlation to the amount of chocolate and chips consumed by a certain someone over the weekend.
There's a fun little item in the Matron's life called 'the dropbox.' This is where students 'drop' their final assignments. Guess how many items are in the Matron's box? Over 150. Sigh.
Here's the kicker. She tried, tried, tried to practice Naikon yesterday. This is the practice of gratitude that she's written about before. She tried to consider the pain she's caused her own mother, what gifts she received and what she (the Matron) received in return.
Instead, all she could conjure from her childhood is that when she was a teenager living in Germany as an exchange student, she wrote home requesting chicken, fried rice and corn on the cob as her welcome home meal. This request was sent via more than one letter and was more like "oh my god if you love me you'll make me my favorite foods I am DYING with the sauerkraut."
She's still bitter about the hamburger helper she got instead. And more. . . .
Friends, shall she consider today an experiment? She is going to practice loving kindness -- relentlessly. With ferver. Starting with herself. So whenever the great big swell of General Unpleasantness that has currently consumed the usually optimistic and upbeat Matron bears down? She is going to greet this with love, kindness and sympathy. Maybe she can get to a better place and start extending that feeling to her mother.
Let's see what happens, shall we?
Given that her entire family is just one click from discovering this blog (hello to those who are already regular readers! she's sorry she's still wearing these warts), this post will probably be removed tomorrow - -let's hope her mood goes with it.
